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May Book Wrap-Up!

Hey everyone! Once again I am sorry that my wrap-up is a little late again but I just moved to another state so that took up a lot of my time. My boyfriend and I moved from Arizona to Washington State and I could not be more happy! It is absolutely beautiful up here and our dog, Wallaby, is loving the huge backyard. I am excited for this new chapter in my life and I have registered to classes at a college here in Washington so I am ready!

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The book is the sequel to A Curse So Dark and Lonely which I absolutely loved so I was so excited to read this book! My favorite characters from the first book were back and the author showed us more of the world which just made me love this series even more. I was worried about the new characters that were introduced just because I loved the original characters so much but quickly, the main characters won me over. I highly recommend this series especially if you love retellings of Beauty and the Beast.

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 We follow different timelines throughout this book, one during WWII times in England and then in present day. One timeline follows the grandmother of Gillian and the other one is Gillian’s present day. This story was heart wrenching and moving, filled with mystery, family drama and suspense. I was sucked into this world from the very beginning.  

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In this book, we follow Ana who is Jesus’ wife. As someone who grew up Catholic and just love learning about religions in general, I was interested in this book even if it was historical fiction. Ana was a great character all around, who knew herself very well and knew that she didn’t want to follow the norm for women back then. When she meets Jesus, her life changes and soon, she needs to find out who she is again because she realizes she is not just Jesus’ wife. This was a very interesting read and I am excited to read more by this author in the future. 

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During WWI, there were many spy networks and one of them was the Alice Network, run by women. We follow two different timelines, one by a spy from the Alice network during the war and another one set years after WWII, following a young woman looking for her cousin. These women end up crossing paths and working together to find out the truths and justice they have been seeking. 

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My best friend Lauren has been recommending me this series for a long time and I am so happy I finally picked it up. We follow Sophie and Agatha who are taken from their normal life into a world full of magic and fairy tale characters. They end up going to the School for Good and Evil in a magical forest, but things are not as they expected. Even though this series is considered a middle grade, I think anyone who reads it will enjoy it.  

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I have always been skeptical about the Shadowhunter books by Cassandra Clare for no real reason honestly. I had only read the first book in the Mortal Instruments series so when Chain of Gold came out, I figured I wouldn’t read it. In the end, booktube won and I just could not resist! I am happy to say that I love this world now and I can’t wait to read more Shadowhunter books soon. I love that Cassandra Clare writes several LGBT characters in this story and the characters, besides one, were all fun to read. Excited for the next book in this series to come out. 

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This is the second book in the School for Good and Evil series, and it was okay. Book 2 and 4 are probably my least character in this series only because a few of the characters act immature for quite a while. In the first book, the main conflict is between good and evil characters but in this one, it is between boy and girls. It was not as captivating as the first book, but it was a fun, easy read in the end. 

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This story was a sweet and simple YA romance that added some political plot lines throughout it. It felt real and what I appreciated was how the romance was not the main point of the book, the friendship and political aspects were. Plus, there was a decent amount of diversity so that was a nice change. 

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Book 3 of the School of Good and Evil and this one was probably my second favorite in the series so far! For a middle grade book, there are some dark subject matter throughout these books and the author is not afraid of killing or harming main characters. One of the best things about this book and the whole series is how often I am surprised by a plot twist. In this book, we meet some new characters that just add so much to the world like Merlin! Yes, the Merlin from the Arthur legends. He is just as whimsical as ever. If I wasn’t sold on this series before, I was after reading this one.  

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I loved this book so much which I was not sure about because I am always iffy about romance books. In this story, we get a Cinderella retelling but set in the modern and geeky world. I loved that both main characters were such nerds about a science fiction TV show, just imagine Star Trek. I was rooting for these characters from the very beginning. 

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I was excited for this book because I am currently studying towards my forensic science degree, but I was a little disappointed. I liked learning about his cases and how he used blood spatter analysis for the first time. His personal life was kind of boring though and I felt like the book lagged.  

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This is the sequel to Geekerella where we follow a few different characters that we met originally in Geekerella. Still set in a fan convention, we follow a movie star that feels trapped in this sci-fi role and a girl who feels invisible that wants to make a difference in the world. The writing in these stories is simple but engaging and again, like with the first book, you will find yourself rooting for all the main characters. 

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If you guys couldn’t tell, I love historical fiction books especially those based on WWII era. We follow a woman named Hedy whose intelligent and very beautiful, who ends up married to a powerful man assisted with the Nazis. After hearing the Nazis’ plans in 1937, she flees to America to continue acting. The story follows her life as she works to help the US fight against the Nazis. It was a decent book, not my favorite but I was glad to have read it.  

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So, The Bride Test is typically a sequel to The Kiss Quotient, but I did not know that when I picked it up. Luckily, you don’t have to read the first one in order to understand what is happening with the second book. We follow Khai, Vietnamese and autistic, whose mother decides the only way that he can find a woman to marry is to arrange a marriage with someone from Vietnam. Esme goes to America in hopes of finding a better life for herself, her daughter, and her mother. Slowly we see Khai and Esme grow close but Khai needs to find out whether, he can accept love.  

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It is safe to say that The Black Witch was the best book I read in the month of May. I didn’t know anything about it, but the synopsis caught my attention, so I decided to pick it up. We follow a naive, sheltered young woman named Elloren, who’s grandmother was the most powerful witch that “saved” her people from the evil ones. At university, Elloren finds out slowly that everything she thought was true was a lie and she joins the resistance to try and protect everyone she loves. I have already read the second book in this series during the first couple of days in June and it just got better. I can’t wait for June 9th when the third book in the series comes out!  

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In this book, we follow Stella, a brilliant mathematician with Asperger’s, looking to learn how to have sex and be in a relationship. To teach her these skills, she hires a male escort named Michael. Extremely sexy, lovable romance, and great characters. The author, Helen Hoang knows how to write romance books that I want to read.  

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On to the fourth book in the School for Good and Evil series and unfortunately, it was my least favorite of these books. I loved the new villain that was introduced but the other original characters were frustrating me honestly. I felt that it was too long for the plot that we got but the last 100 pages almost made up for the rest of the book.  

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Trigger warning for this book, there is a lot of psychological and physical abuse of children by a parent. They were several parts of this story that were hard to read because of the gaslighting and manipulation but it was a great read in the end. One of the best lines in this book was, “I loved my mother because I didn’t know I had a choice. I had to love her.” It was just so powerful and moving. Highly recommend!  

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April Book Wrap-up and Review!

Damsel by Elana K Arnold 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • Overall, this book was decent. I was expecting a fairy tale retelling story but I got the opposite of that. The author used this book to write about male domination of women and the ugliness that can happen when a woman fights that domination. This book is a dark allegory and I think it achieved its goal of making the reader angry and disgusted by the male characters within the story. Be advised if you pick up this book, there is some explicit sexual content and abusive relationships. 

Scrappy Little Nobody by Anna Kendrick

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Autobiography 
  • Anna Kendrick is one of my favorite actresses and when I found out that she had a memoir out, I knew I had to read it. This memoir was clever and hilarious. I loved learning about her life before she became famous. 

The Blade Itself by Joe Abercrombie 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Fantasy
  • This was a surprising favorite in the month of April. This book is considered grimdark fantasy and even though I am a fantasy fan, there are some grimdark books that just were not for me. The Blade Itself was definitely a book for me! I loved all the characters and I loved seeing how flawed they are and I can’t wait to see how the rest of the First Law trilogy goes! 

My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Fiction, Thriller
  • I don’t know even what to say about My Dark Vanessa. Really quickly, a brief summary: This book follows two timelines; first: where Vanessa, 15-year old girl, goes to a board school and ends up in a relationship with her English teacher, the second: Years later, Vanessa is an adult and allegations about this teacher are coming out about how he has been abusing several girls over the years. Vanessa as an adult has a hard time accepting that these allegations are true because she remembers her relationship with him being mutual, consensual, and about love, not abuse. This book is so powerful with an important subject matter that needs to be talked about. Warning: There are several difficult scenes to read in this book. A lot of sexual abuse and gaslighting. Take your time reading this novel, it is worth the read. 

Attachments by Rainbow Rowell

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Romance, Contemporary
  • This month was apparently the Rainbow Rowell month because I ended up reading 3 of her books. Her stories have always been enjoyable and this one was just as great as I was hoping. After reading My Dark Vanessa, I needed a light, sweet love story and this book was perfect for that. 

Winterwood by Shea Ernshaw 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • This was an easy and simple read that I enjoyed quite a bit. Definitely wasn’t my favorite of the month but for a basic YA story, it was good. The reader follows this girl, who comes from a line of witches connected to the woods next to her house. When walking through the woods one day, she finds a boy that had been missing for a couple of weeks and he should have been dead by now. It was a decent fantasy mystery with a cute love story. 

A Curse So Dark and Lonely by Brigid Kemmerer

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • Retellings of Beauty and Beast are very popular in TV, movies, and books so I was nervous about reading another one but wow! This book is PHENOMENAL! I absolutely loved the world, the characters, the pacing. Probably the best Beauty and the Beast retelling I have ever read. I plan on reading the sequel in May and I am so excited! 

The Tattooist of Auschwitz by Heather Morris 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Historical Fiction
  • I had been considering reading this book for so long and I am so glad I finally did! This story is set in Auschwitz and we follow a man who “volunteered” to go with the Nazis so that his family didn’t have to. Once he arrived at the concentration camp, he got sick and since he survived that sickness, the tattooist took him under his wing to help protect him. Eventually the main character becomes the main tattooist and the story follows him for years as he meets the love of his life, tries to survive, and save as many people as he can. Highly recommend if you enjoy reading historical fiction and stories about survival, specifically from the Holocaust.  

Emergency Contact by Mary H.K. Choi

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Romance, Contemporary
  • I am usually not a fan of contemporary books but this one was really fun and an adorable read. These characters felt real to me and the world was believable. Sometimes the main characters were a bit judgy and prickly but overall, I understood why they were acting like that. Not to mention, I did like how anxiety was described within this book. Quick and fun read.

Blood of Elves by Andrzej Sapakowski 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Fantasy
  • This is the first book in the Witcher series after the two short story books. I watched the Witcher series on netflix before reading this book and played a bit of the Witcher games. I really enjoyed this world where we follow a witcher called Geralt of Rivia and a special girl named Ciri. There are sorcerers, magic, elves, dwarfs, and monsters everywhere in this series and I think it’s amazing. I’m excited to continue on with the Witcher books. 

Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking by Susan Cain

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Psychology
  • I connected with most of the ideas in this book about introverts and I found myself nodding awhile with several points. If someone asked me if this is worth a read, I would say yes but I would need to add that there weren’t many eye-opening revelations so don’t go in expecting that. 

Permanent Record by Mary H.K. Choi 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fiction, Romance, Contemporary
  • Permanent Record was probably the most disappointing reading from this month. I was expecting to like this book because I enjoyed Emergency Contact  by the same author but wow, was I wrong. I just could not connect with the main character at all or his love interest. I didn’t like the slang and dialogue within this story either. If you want to read Mary H.K. Choi’s book, read Emergency Contact,  not this one. 

Star Wars: Thrawn by Timothy Zahn

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Science Fiction, Fantasy
  • I read the original Thrawn trilogy years ago and it became my favorite Star Wars trilogy of all time. When I heard that it was no longer canon and the author was rewriting the Thrawn storyline, I was upset at first. But this book exceeded my expectations! Thrawn’s political rise within the Empire was insane because of how brilliant he is. I can’t wait to read the next two books in the series! 

Landline by Rainbow Rowell

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Romance
  • This was another good book by Rainbow Rowell but I will say, it was probably my least favorite book by her. This story follows a married couple from meeting in college, to starting a relationship, marriage, having children, to where they are in the present day. They are having some problems because the wife, at first, is very focused on her career. We follow her journey during a week without her family, where she discovers her mistakes and realizes what she needs to be happy. It was a sweet story overall. 

Carry On by Rainbow Rowell

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • Where do I begin with this book?! I LOVED IT SO MUCH. Not only is it my favorite Rainbow Rowell book ever, but it was a fan fiction type story besides on the world from the Harry Potter books. I haven’t really talked about my love and obsession with Harry Potter on my blog yet but when I heard what this book was about, I knew it was for. I read it almost all in one sitting because I just couldn’t put it down. Best way to finish the month of April. 
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The Bad Mexican Daughter – Part 3

Hey everyone! Bad Mexican Daughter is back again! Sorry for the long stretch between the Bad Mexican Daughter posts. Unfortunately because of the current state of the world, I have not been in too much of a writing mood. I have pretty much just been hiding away into book after book. You guys may have noticed all of my book related content lately. Anyways, let this new post begin. 

I have mentioned before how I didn’t grow up in the happiest of homes. There were many great memories and I love my family but I would be lying if I said that I had a happy childhood. It only got worse as I became a teenager because I could finally understand what my parents had been hiding from me and my sister the entire time; my dad’s alcoholism. Well actually, it was my mom keeping it a secret, my dad usually wasn’t there. He was too busy drinking at a bar or a casino to try and hide anything. 

By the time I was a teenager, my sister and I could not stand each other. When I tell people this, they assume it’s typical sibling bickering but no, it was much deeper than that. As I grew up and learned more about who my father was, I did not try and hide my disappointment and frustration with him. I would ignore him or if he forced me to talk to him, I would snap at him. My sister is younger than me and she still didn’t know everything about his problems so what she saw was just a bad daughter being a bitch to her beloved dad. My mom had made me promise not to tell my sister anything about my dad or the drinking problem so I could not explain to her why I was acting that way towards our dad. 

The reason I brought this all up is because this is the main reason I moved away to another state as soon as I was 18 years old. For a long time, I explained it to friends and family that I was moving away because of school but honestly, I just had to get away from my dad. It killed me to leave my mom but I knew that I could not stay near my dad because I could not deal with the lies and the fighting between my parents. Before I was 18, I would do anything I could to stay out of my house all day and sometimes all night. I couldn’t be there. What I know now is that I was doing all of this to protect myself because my anxiety and depression were getting worse the more time I spent near him. 

Moving away, no matter if it was for a reason like the one I had, was not okay in my family. I think my mom understood deep down why I was leaving but everyone else in my extended family saw this move as strange and wrong. Mexican daughters are not supposed to leave their parents’ house until they are married. I had aunts, uncles, and my grandmother telling me all the time how much my parents, especially my mom missed me, how I should come back home because it would be best for my parents, that it’s safer to be at home with them. My dad’s problems were a known secret to the extended family and yet, I was the bad one in the household. How dare I leave my parents before marriage. To this day, I have family members tell me that it is good I moved back to my home state (6 years later, mind you) because my family needed me. 

What frustrates me the most about all of this is that no one in my family (except maybe a cousin or two) seemed to understand the pain I was in when I lived at home. To them, my dad’s problems were just that, his problems. I was labeled the bad mexican daughter by my extended family because moving away was selfish and irresponsible. There could be no possible good reason for a young woman to move away from home, worse to another state.

Now I am 26 years old. I still get comments when my grandmother comes to visit the family that it’s a blessing to have me back in the same state as my parents, although I should really consider moving back with my parents all together. She loves to make me feel guilty, saying things like, “I know how happy your mom is to have you near again, she was so unhappy when you were gone. Your dad too. Good thing you realized the mistakes you made and came back.” 

What only my mom and sister know now is that I plan on moving out of state again in May of this year. I have a great opportunity waiting for me in Washington so my boyfriend, my dog, and I are moving up there. I couldn’t be more excited, I have always wanted to live in Washington. My mom is actually happy for me. I don’t know if it is because she knows I am not running away this time or if it’s because I’m older but she is understanding and happy. My sister was a little passive aggressive when she found out but it was a better reaction than I was expecting honestly. I don’t really care what my extended family thinks about the move and that is why I haven’t told any of them. I still need to tell my dad but with everything going on in this world, I just haven’t had the chance. I know when I call and tell him, he will be upset at me but I’m unfortunately used to it. I will be the bad mexican daughter once again but at this point in my life, I am okay with that. Wish me luck everyone when I finally decide to call my dad with this news, later this week!

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March Book Wrap-Up!

The Battle of the Labyrinth by Rick Riordan 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Juvie/Middle grade fantasy
  • This is the fourth book in the Percy Jackson series and it was the perfect way to start the month. When I was younger, I never got this far into the series but I am so glad I finally am getting around to it. The idea of a labyrinth always stresses me out because I don’t like enclosed spaces but this book handled it in such a way that I could definitely handle it. Yet again, I am impressed by Riordan’s world building. 

The Merciless IV: Last Rites by Danielle Vega

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young adult fantasy
  • I finally finished the Merciless series! When the description of a book is literally “Mean Girls meets the Exorcist”, I just knew I was going to love this series. It had the right amount of horror and bitchy teenage behavior.  

There’s Someone Inside Your House by Stephanie Perkins

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young adult fiction/Thriller
  • For some reason, I have been loving mystery type books so the synopsis for this book just sounded perfect. Mystery girl moves to the middle of nowhere, Nebraska and she starts dating the strange, loner boy. Then a bunch of murders start happening to the students at the high school. Who is doing this and why. It was a quick and fun mystery story.

The Last Olympian by Rick Riordan 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Juvie/Middle grade fantasy
  • Okay guys! I did it, I made it to the last Percy Jackson book and wow, did it not disappoint me at all. Everything was wrapped up beautifully and we see a great redemption arc, which I always enjoy reading. I highly recommend reading this series and I can’t wait to get more Rick Riordian books in the future. 

As Old As Time by Liz Braswell

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young adult fantasy
  • Now, this is my FAVORITE book that I read in the month of March. I absolutely love Beauty and the Beast and this book is literally a retelling where Belle’s mom was actually the enchantress that cursed the young prince. You get to learn so much about Belle’s parents before Belle was born and the world surrounding Belle’s little village and the Beast’s kingdom. Absolutely incredible book and if you love the original Beauty and the Beast, I think you will fall in love with this story. 

War Storm by Victoria Aveyard

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young adult fantasy
  • This is the final book in the Red Queen series and just like every other book in the series, it was good but not incredible. I gave the whole series a 4 star because it was a good concept, interesting world, but the main character was just not my favorite. A Lot of her chances, even at the end, just made me frustrated with her. Would still recommend it but it is just not one of my favorite young adult series. 

Eight Perfect Murders by Peter Swanson 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Thriller/Mystery
  • I ended up really enjoying Eight Perfect Murders and before I started it, I knew I would either really hate it or really love it. The reason I knew that is because when I read mysteries, there have been several times when I guessed the twist and the stories start to bore me. But when I read a mystery like this one, where I didn’t guess the twist and there are multiple surprises throughout the whole thing, that is when I am truly happy with a mystery book. 

A Memory of Light by Robert Jordan, Brandon Sanderson 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Fantasy
  • A Memory of Light was tied with my favorite book of the month. This book was the conclusion to the Wheel of Time series and it was everything I wanted it to. I was completely satisfied with this ending and I don’t always say that about other series I have read. The last 400 pages were insane and full of action. Everyone that likes fantasy at all should read this series. 

Music to My Years: A Mixtape-Memoir of Growing Up and Standing Up by Cristela Alonzo 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Autobiography 
  • I have been wanting to read this book for a long time and I was not disappointed. I have been a fan of Cristela Alonzo since I watched her show, Cristela. It was the first time I had watched a show and felt connected and represented as a Hispanic woman who loves nerd stuff. Cristela is a brilliant woman whose story is just inspiring and super encouraging.  

The Haunting of Ashburn by Darcy Coates 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Horror/Thriller 
  • This was an enjoyable horror book but it was not as scary as I wanted it to be. After all the other horror stories I have read and movies I have watched, this book was a little predictable. I would still recommend this book, especially to those that get easily scared. 

Reflection by Elizabeth Lim 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • Reflection is a retelling of Disney’s Mulan and unfortunately, it did not live up to my expectations. I had high hopes after reading the retelling of Beauty and the Beast from the same series and that book was SO good. It made my expectations grow very high. Luckily for this story the last 50 pages were pretty good, otherwise it would have received only two stars instead of the three I gave it. 

Only Mostly Devastated by Sophie Gonzales 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fiction/Contemporary/Romance/LGBT
  • Now this book was a perfect way to end the month of March! I picked it up on a whim while working through Barnes and Noble and wow, am I happy I grabbed it! The main tagline for this book compares it to Grease, Clueless, and Simon vs the Homo Sapiens Agenda so I just knew I was going to love it. All the characters but especially Ollie (main character) were so lovable and real that you could not help but wish them the best! I highly recommend it!
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February Book Wrap-up!

This is EXTREMELY late but school and work have been keeping me busy. Luckily, I have a bit of free time now because of spring break, so I can finally post February’s wrap up! If you any recommendations for books I should try out or want to start a discuss about the books I have read, feel free to leave a comment!

The Sea of Monsters by Rick Riordan

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Juvie/Middle Grade Fantasy
  • This is the second book in the Percy Jackson series. When I was younger, I had read the first three books in this series but I honestly didn’t remember much except what happened in the first book. I really enjoyed this second book because it was showing me more of this world and explored more Greek mythology creatures and gods.

Glass Sword by Victoria Aveyard

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: YA Fantasy
  • This is the second novel in the Red Queen series. I really enjoyed the first book and was curious where this one would go. I enjoyed learning more about the organizations working to overthrow the government but the reason I gave this book only four stars was because of the main character. I didn’t feel like she grew very much at all and I had hoped she would change a little bit at least.

Steelheart by Brandon Sanderson

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: YA Fantasy
  • I was really excited to read Steelheart because it is the first book in the Reckoners series by my favorite author, Sanderson. I have read several books by him and have never been disappointed. This book continued that streak. It was a very interesting concept where this “calamity” event happened on Earth which led to many people developing super powers but what makes it different from other superhero books, is that these people ended up being corrupt and evil. I can’t wait to pick up the next two books in this series.

Lovely War by Julie Berry

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Historical Fiction, Romance
  • Now this one was probably my favorite read in the month of February! I am a huge history and mythology nerd so when I heard that the world in this book revolves around Greek gods and World War I and II, I was hooked!

Towers of Midnight by Robert Jordan, Brandon Sanderson

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Fantasy
  • This is the thirteenth book in the Wheel of Time series and shit is happening! I read this in like a week which is fast when you consider that this book is over 1200 pages long. Luckily, it didn’t feel that long at all. I am currently reading the next and final book in this series and oh man, am I excited to see what happens.  

The Truth About Magic by Atticus

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Poetry
  • This is the first book by this author I have ever read but it will definitely not be the last. Their poems were beautiful and full of emotion and thought. The artwork and photography in this book helped put me in the perfect mood.

Echo North by Joanna Ruth Meyer

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: YA Fantasy
  • This was a recommendation and present from my best friend Lauren! She was so sweet and got it signed by the author for me! I really loved this book that connected fairy tales, magic, love, and beautiful writing into one incredible story. Highly recommend!

King’s Cage by Victoria Aveyard

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: YA Fantasy
  • This is the third book in the Red Queen series and like the last one, it would have received five stars, if it wasn’t for the main character’s behavior at the end of the book. For three-fourths of the book, I was loving it and the development of all the characters who are dealing with a lot of torture and PTSD. But one of the last decisions made by the main character at the end just made me angry honestly. I understood why she made that choice but still, I did not agree. Still an amazing series though.

Red, White & Royal Blue by Casey McQuiston

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Romance
  • This selection was definitely outside my comfort zone. As many of you can tell, I read A LOT of fantasy books, it’s my favorite genre. I have never really enjoyed any previous romance books I have read until this book! The characters were charming and weirdly relatable even though one of them is a prince and the other is the son of the president of the United States. The romance was written beautifully and in a way, that made you also fall in love with the characters; it just felt real. If you have been scared of trying out a romance book before, I think this would be a good one to try.

The Titan’s Curse by Rick Riordan

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Juvie/Middle Grade Fantasy
  • I started and ended the month with a Percy Jackson book and I was not disappointed at all! In the third book of the series, we meet some key players in this series like Artemis’ Hunters and wow, was that entertaining! This book was so good that I read the next one immediately after.

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The End of an Era

A few months ago, I wrote about a friendship of mine that had changed. One where my friend and I were very close, very dependent on each other but after 10+ years of friendship, we were just becoming too different to stay best friends. But since that post, many things have happened. 

My friend and I used to be roommates and wow, was that a bad choice. Our friendship pretty much dissolved completely in just a year. The first post where I wrote about our friendship was about 9 to 10 months into us living together. If any of you have read that post, which was called “Friendships Change,” you would understand how our friendship was before it blew up. It was helpful, healing, and just fun. Music played a huge role in our friendship. Unhealthy family dynamics probably played the largest role in our friendship. 

Anyways, I wanted to write about this again because since that post, the friendship has completely exploded. Even though I was still under a lease at our apartment, I just told her that I would continue to pay my part of the rent but I was moving out. I couldn’t live in a place where I felt constantly criticized and where my life and the people in my life were looked at with disdain. 

I had hoped deep down that once I moved out and some time had passed, we would be able to maybe mend our friendship. I didn’t think we would ever be best friends again like before, but maybe just a friend that you talk and hang out with here and there. How wrong I was. 

As soon as our lease was up and we moved completely out, she removed me from all social media and blocked me. The day I found that out, man, did it hurt. All my hopes about keeping her in my life were gone. It has been about 5 months since we last talked. Whenever something big or important happens in my life, my first instinct is to text her and tell her about it but then I remember I can’t do that anymore. 

There are some days when all of this really hurts and I just want to cry. She was like a sister to me, someone who I trust over everyone else. I know I don’t have that person anymore, that they are just gone sucks so much. I have grieved for loved ones before that have passed away, and this pain is very similar to that. The person who was my sister, my best friend is gone; she doesn’t exist anymore. 

Day by day, the pain is slowly fading. I have made new friendships, who support and encourage me, who love the me I am today. She made her choice. If she wants nothing to do with me anymore, then I will move on and eventually, I hope that I will just remember our friendship for the good times we had. I wish her nothing but the best. 

If any of you have ever gone through something like this or are currently going through this, just know it gets better. But remember, it is still okay to mourn that friendship, that held a special place in your heart for so long.

Posted in blog, emotions, life, love, poem, poetry, relationship

Everything

I cannot ask for more

Never in my deepest dreams 

Had I truly considered 

Finding someone like you 

Until one day 

You were there 

Before you

I never realized 

How the earth shook 

Under me 

Before you 

I had never 

Experienced true warmth 

True security 

The day we found each other 

That was the day 

The earth finally stood still 

I was finally 

On solid ground 

Everyday 

I see you 

I feel you 

And I thank the universe 

For you 

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January Book Wrap Up

Earlier this month, I posted my January book review and I thought I wasn’t going to get through any other books the rest of the month because of school. But LUCKILY, my school work hasn’t been that bad yet! So I went a little crazy and read A LOT more books after those from my last post. 8 more books to be exact!

Labyrinth Lost by Zoraida Cordova 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • I LOVE this book and when I found out there was a sequel to it, I got real excited. This book creates a beautiful world of magic with hints of the Latino culture which I loved since I grew up in the Mexican culture. Best way to describe this book is think of the show Charmed but with Latinx witches (brujas)!

The Power of Self-Compassion by Laurie J Cameron 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Self-Help
  • Audible
  • I liked this audiobook but I didn’t think it was anything new or revolutionary. I enjoyed some of the exercises within this book to help with calming anxiety and that negative voice that can affect your brain.

You’re Never Weird on the Internet (Almost) by Felicia Day

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Autobiography
  • I knew even before starting this book that I would absolutely love it! If you are a fan of Felicia Day, the gaming world online, or just geek stuff, read this book.

The Book of Sam by Rob Shapiro 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • The world described was so vivid that I felt completely immersed and the descriptions in this book about Hell were different from others I have read so I appreciated that. As you read this book and meet new character, you will just never know if that person/demon is good or bad.

Hold Me Tight by Jason Schneiderman 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Poetry
  • Very different from other poetry books I have read before. This book addressed anxiety from a world filled with technology and violence.

Bruja Born by Zoraida Cordova 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • Sequel to Labyrinth Lost and it did not disappoint at all. Again, if you loved Charmed, love witches, and strong female characters, read this series. I can’t wait for the third book in the series to come out later this year.

Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • This was an easy and fun young adult book that makes you invested in the character’s lives and dreams. The romance in this book was simple and was built nice and slow from the beginning. I don’t like when authors introduce character, give them little interaction together and then they were somehow in love. This book’s romance made sense.

A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fiction/Fantasy
  • It takes a lot for me to cry at a book or movie but this book truly made it easy to cry because of the heart-wrenching storyline. The author tackled the ideas of death, grieving, loss, and healing after the death of a loved one.

I am so proud of myself this month. I got through 19 books total this January! Started off this year strong for sure. We shall see how February goes. I am currently working on three books, Towers of Midnight (Wheel of Time book 13) by Robert Jordan, Glass Sword (Red Queen book 2) by Victoria Aveyard, and The Sea of Monsters (Percy Jackson and the Olympians book 2) by Rick Riordan. I am excited to see what other worlds I discover this month! What are you guys reading? Do you guys have any recommendations? Leave me a comment. Until next time, bye everyone!

 

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January 2020 Book Review

Seveneves by Neal Stephenson 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Science Fiction
  • I enjoyed the world that was created in this story and the characters were decent. I gave it a 3 out of 5 because it was just average to me.

Imaginary Friend by Stephen Chbosky 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Horror Fiction
  • I had high hopes for this book and it lived up to those hopes. I loved the symbolism throughout the story and all the horror elements.  

Infinity Son by Adam Silvera 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fiction
  • This was a brilliant book full of characters that you could connect with and relate to. By the end of this book, I wanted to be in this world and I can’t wait for the sequel.

No Judgement by Meg Cabot 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Romance 
  • I usually don’t like Romance books because I personally feel that they are all very similar but I decided to give this one a chance since I had enjoyed previous books by Cabot. I do not regret picking up this book, it was truly enjoyable and simple

The Other Boleyn Girl by Philippa Gregory

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Historical Fiction 
  • I knew I would love this book even before I started reading it. I love history and learning more about the Tudors. This was a great book to see more of the relationships that we have heard so much about

The Gathering Storm by Robert Jordan, Brandon Sanderson 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Fantasy
  • This is book 12 of the Wheel of Time series and the first book where Brandon Sanderson took up the challenge to finish the series for Robert Jordan. The middle books in the series were a slow and difficult read for me but this one held my attention from the start. Can’t wait to read the last two books in the series 

The Diary of a Hounslow Girl by Ambreen Razia 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Fiction 
  • This was an audible book and I liked how it was performed and the way the author made it easy to relate with the main character 

The Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Juv Young Reader Fantasy
  • I think most people already know about the Percy Jackson books so all I will say is if you haven’t read this series, go read it. It is worth it especially if you like mythology and Greek mythology specifically

Simon vs the Homo Sapien Agenda by Becky Albertalli 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fiction
  • I had watched the movie based on this book before reading it so I knew the general story. I definitely enjoyed the book more than the movie because several changes were made in the movie that I don’t think should have been changed. 

The Starless Sea by Erin Morgenstern 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐
  • Genre: Fantasy, Fiction
  • This will probably be my most controversial review and rating. So many people love this book but I just did not like it. I hated the writing style, way too flowery. I felt like there was no true plot and no conflict. The characters were bland with no direction or true reason to do anything  

The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up by Marie Kondo 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Self-Help, Nonfiction
  • This book has changed many people’s lives, so I was curious about it. I did like several of her suggestions and have started implementing them into my life. The main point that I completely disagree with was in regards to what books to keep and how many you should keep. I love having a ton of books at home even if I never reread most of them. I won’t get rid of them, that is for sure!

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The Bad Mexican Daughter, Part 2: “Family Don’t End With Blood”

Welcome back to The Bad Mexican Daughter. I hope those of you who read the first part of this series not only enjoyed it but also connected to it in someway. I know that for me, as I was writing part 1, I felt a major sense of relief. Those were thoughts I have had for years, thoughts that had haunted and taunted me. It felt good to be able to express myself freely for the first time. Not holding back at all. 

So I want to continue that feeling. Here is The Bad Mexican Daughter, Part 2: “Family Don’t End With Blood”

“Family Don’t End With Blood” has become a very important part of my life and how I see the world. For those of you who do not recognize that signing, don’t worry I will explain its origin and for those that do know this quote, let’s be friends! Anyways, this quote was said by a character in the TV show, Supernatural (one of my favorite shows of all time). He is yelling this quote to the two main characters, explaining that even though they are not blood related, they are family. 

This statement has always held a very special place in my heart. I have always been that individual that felt more comfortable, more understood with people outside of my family than with those that I share blood with. That is a very un-Mexican thing to think. My parents, especially my mom always argued with me because I didn’t like going to family parties. That feeling started at a young age, probably 8-9. I just knew that I didn’t fit in with my cousins, that I didn’t want to play or dance with my family. My mom would just say that I was misbehaving and she would force me to go to family events. 

Let me explain one thing very quickly. I came from a typical Mexican family, meaning LARGE family. Both of my parents had several siblings and cousins and those individual’s all had 2-6 kids so I have A LOT of cousins. And unfortunately for me, I have only ever truly connected with 3 of those cousins. My extended family loves parties, loud music, dancing, drinking, etc. That is not my scene at all so during these events I would find the farthest corner away from everyone with my close 2-3 cousins, if they were there, and just tried to ignore everything around me. Those events always made me anxious and uncomfortable, yet I still had to go. 

Lucky for me, once I got into high school, started honor classes and joining clubs, I had several excuses to miss those parties. Eventually the only time I would see my extended family was at Thanksgiving and Christmas. Even then, I would leave early to spend time with friends or my boyfriend at the time. 

The older I got, the more certain I was that my “family” wasn’t only those related to me by blood. When I say this, I want to make sure that everyone understands that I am not saying that my blood family isn’t my family anymore. But those who I have chosen to be my new family are just as important and precious to me as the others. Family should be those who you want in your life, to share important moments with, the people who understand you. For me, the majority of those individuals are not blood relatives and that is okay. 

Sometimes, I feel bad feeling this way. Mexican culture is very strongly connected to family. Family is the most important thing in the world, next to God. I was told this my entire life. So when I say that the family I have chosen isn’t those blood related to me, its almost like a slap in the face to my blood-related family. But I believe we all have the right to feel comfortable and safe with those we call family and that is why I can’t call all of my blood relatives my true family. 

When I was younger, I figured these thoughts and feelings would go away but they only intensified. Now as a 26 year old woman, I can understand that these thoughts, these feelings are perfectly okay and this acceptance all started with that quote from Supernatural, “Family Don’t End With Blood.” If you feel closer and safer with people who are not blood relatives, that is okay. If you want to spend time with your new family more than your blood relatives, that is okay. Life is too short to continually put yourself in situations where we feel uncomfortable and strange.