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September Book Wrap-Up!

Mitosis by Brandon Sanderson

4/5 stars

This was a novella for The Reckoners series. It was a fun, entertaining story that added more backstory to this world. I wish I could have known and read this book between Steelheart and Firefight because it would have added some hints to the mystery behind the Epic’s weaknesses. 

The Emperor’s Soul by Brandon Sanderson 

4/5 stars

The Emperor’s Soul was another novella by Brandon Sanderson connected to Elantris. It is insane to me how good Brandon Sanderson’s world building can be in a novella under 200 pages. The heroine of this novella was incredible, intelligent and I just loved her. I would say you could read this novella without reading Elantris because although they are in the same world, they are two separate stories. 

Secret History by Brandon Sanderson 

5/5 stars

Now let’s talk about Secret History. This is a novella connected with the Mistborn series, specifically Mistborn era one. I can’t really say much about this book because it would result in spoilers BUT I will say that if you missed reading about the incredible characters in Mistborn era one, read this book because some of them are back. I got literal chills while reading Secret History, being back in this world with some of my favorite fantasy characters was just so nice. 

Agent to the Stars by John Scalzi 

4/5 stars

John Scalzi is one of those authors that I always enjoy reading their work. Science fiction books are sometimes hard for me to get into but Scalzi’s writing and characters help me enjoy his sci-fi worlds. Agent to the Stars was another great read from Scalzi for me. The main character is a celebrity agent who is fairly successful so his boss decides to assign him a new client. This client just happens to be an alien whose alien race wants to make themselves known to humanity. This book is full of witty and smartass conversations that make you love the characters. 

Where Dreams Descend by Janella Angeles 

4/5 stars

Okay so Where Dreams Descend was a fun book and the promo for this book was so accurate. I kept hearing that this story was a combination of Moulin Rouge, Greatest Showman, and a bit of Phantom of the Opera and if you know me at all, I am a musical theater lover! Everything I heard about this book made me so excited! There was magic, romance, a circus, dark pasts and intrigue; all of these things together make for a great book, in my opinion! Side note: I heard a lot of people comparing Where Dreams Descend to Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern but I disagree. I honestly didn’t like Night Circus, the idea was cool but I don’t like the flowery writing in that book at all. So if you are like me, dislike Night Circus, don’t let that dislike stop you from reading this book. 

Hideaway by Penelope Douglas 

4/5 stars

Okay we are on book two of Devil’s Night and man, this series is SO GREAT! Penelope Douglas is my favorite Romance writer for sure! The main characters from the first book in the series, Corrupt, are in this book as well but the MCs we follow are now Kai Mori and Banks. Michael and Rika are trying to move on from the events of Corrupt but Kai and Banks are still very much invested in the mysteries that resulted from Corrupt. 

The Lost Hero by Rick Riordan 

4/5 stars

Returning to Riordan’s book worlds has been so much fun. He just never disappoints me at all. I loved how this book connects the Roman gods to the Greek ones we have come to know. Some of my favorite characters from the Percy Jackson series are back again in this series but we do have new teenagers that we are following mainly. I can’t wait to continue with this series! 

The Time of Contempt by Andrzej Sapkowski 

3/5 stars

This is the second full-length novel in the Witcher series and it was just okay. I wish I was more in love with this series but it is just not my favorite. I know I will continue this series eventually but honestly right now, it will not be my priority. 

The Book of Unknown Americans by Cristina Henriquez

4/5 stars

This was a hard book for me to read honestly. It is a heartbreaking story about several Latino immigrant families trying to make it in the United States. The main family we follow is the Riveras from Mexico who came to the US after their daughter Maribel had an almost fatal accident and they came here to get her help. The book ends sadly and there is definitely not a happy ending for the characters but I liked that because life is hard, not always happy.  

A Court of Mist and Fury by Sarah J Maas

5/5 stars

Probably the best book I read in the month of September. I can’t believe I waited so long to read this series. Sarah J Maas has easily become one of my favorite authors especially when I want a fantasy romance book. So ACOMAF is the second book in A Court of Thorns and Roses series. Feyre is about to have a life changing moment but Rhysand had a different plan. Several things are revealed during this book and that is why I have to read the third book in October for sure; I need to know what happens!

Last Argument of Kings by Joe Abercrombie

4/5 stars

Oh Joe Abercrombie, you definitely know how to write a grimdark world so well! I would definitely consider him my favorite grimdark author for sure! This is the final book in the First Law trilogy and it didn’t let me down at all! Just like the last two books in this series, all the characters continue to surprise me and one of them more than the others! I can’t wait to read the series that follows this world but years later especially after the events in Last Argument of Kings because wow, I did not see that ending coming. 

Blood and Honey by Shelby Mahurin 

4/5 stars

This is the sequel to Serpent and Dove and it follows the events of our favorite characters from the first book after they escaped near death. The MCs are on a quest to find allies against Lou’s mother and just protective against her and the church that is also after them. The romance between Lou and Reid continues to grow even though it would be easier to not be together. The cliffhanger at the end of this book was incredible and intense! I can’t believe I have to wait now to see what ends up happening with all of these characters! 

Girl, Serpent, Thorn by Melissa Bashardoust

3/5 stars

This was a decently good book. It made me think of a fairytale where the princess is cursed and a charming guy wants to save her. I like how this fairytale was reimagined. There were several twists and I loved the different creatures that are found in this book. The book had strong Middle Eastern tones which I loved because I am trying to read more books that are not based around English history. 

The Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson 

4/5 stars

This classic horror book is another haunted house story but that is okay because it was still good. I had watched the Netflix TV show LOOSELY based on this book so I thought I had an idea of what to expect but the book is so different from the book. I liked both though in the end. If you are looking for a classic horror book that is creepy and crazy, check this one out. 

Wayward Witch by Zoraida Cordova

4/5 stars

I am so happy that this book is out and I can continue reading about these amazing characters in this incredible world that Zoraida Cordova has created. Wayward Witch is the third installment in the Brooklyn Brujas series and it did not disappoint me at all. We follow the youngest sister in the Mortiz family on an adventure to save a fairy realm and in the process, repair her family back in the human world. People! Please read this series and anything by Cordova, you won’t be disappointed! 

Red Sister by Mark Lawrence 

3/5 stars

Book one of the Book of the Ancestor series and it has been recommended to me by several people, so I was excited to finally start this series. We follow Nona, a young girl who has had a difficult life, who is now training at the Convent of Sweet Mercy where young girls like her train to be assassins. I liked the magic system and the writing. I will definitely continue this series eventually.

Foundryside by Robert Jackson Bennet

4/5 stars

I am so glad that Foundryside was the last book I read this month because wow, it was so good!! The writing style reminded me of my favorite author, Brandon Sanderson, and the humor was very much a mix of Sanderson and Jim Butcher (in my opinion, anyways). Sancia, the main character, is a thief who has unique abilities that make her a great thief. She ends up stealing an ancient item that ends up putting her in the middle of a political, action packed situation. All the characters were incredible and there is not one that I hated even the villain. The twist in the end was amazing and I did not see that coming at all, which I love when that happens. 

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July Book Wrap Up!

What If It’s Us by Becky Albertalli and Adam Silvera

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

Arthur is in New York for the summer because of his mom’s job and he is a hopeless romantic. Ben lives in New York and he thinks the universe hates him. These two meet at the post office but they don’t exchange numbers so Arthur and Ben start hunting for each other because they felt like the universe had brought them together. Once together again, their relationship develops. This was a very cute book that makes you root for these two guys so much. It was a great way to finish my month. 

The Ship of the Dead by Rick Riordan

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

The finale to the Magnus Chase series and wow, Rick Riordan never disappoints me! All of our favorite characters from the series are back and we even got to see Percy Jackson within this series for a bit as well! Loki is trying to destroy the world yet again and our incredible characters are on a mission to stop him. My favorite part of this series and this book specifically is how Riordan introduced a gender fluid character and the developing love interest that happens with this character! Highly recommend pretty much anything by Riordan.

The Alloy of Law by Brandon Sanderson

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

I went back to the Mistborn/Cosmere world by Sanderson and like always, it was an incredible journey. I had read The Alloy of Law almost two years ago (I think?) and for whatever reason, I didn’t finish Mistborn era 2 at that time but I think it is time to finish it! I love how this book shows us the world 300 years after the events of Mistborn era 1. We follow new amazing characters that are filled with humor, depth, and intensity. Some people say Sanderson does not write female characters very well but I completely disagree. This book had another main female character that I just loved especially because like me, she is obsessed with criminology. 

Calamity by Brandon Sanderson

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

Next up was the final book in the Reckoners series again by Sanderson and man do I just love this man’s works. The third book opens up as the Reckoners are trying to survive as Limelight is hunting them down. They all have to decide if they can survive their friend or if they will have to kill them. The romance was just enough to keep me happy but luckily it didn’t take over the entire story. I like that Sanderson is not afraid to cripple or kill his characters. The story came full circle by the end and was completely satisfying to me. 

Helter Skelter by Vincent Bugliosi

Rating: 3 out of 5 stars

I am someone that is studying to become a forensic psychologist so true crime, serial killers, and cult leaders are subjects that have always interested me. Charles Mason is one of those individuals whose story I know but I just can’t fully understand his control over his “family.” I liked this book because it dove deep into the events leading up to the Mason murders and explained more of the mindset that several of the family members had before, during, and after the murders. 

Once More Upon a Time by Roshani Chokshi

Rating: 3 out of 5 stars

This was your typical fantasy romance story. A prince and a princess are in love, something separates them, a quest begins, and then they are together again. It was cute and a fun read but it was completely predictable. 

House of Earth and Blood by Sarah J Maas

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

This was the first Maas book I have ever read and wow, it will not be the last! My best friend Lauren bought me a copy and has been bugging me to start this book for so long and I will say, I was nervous! Maas is one of her favorite authors so I felt like I needed to love it or else she would have been disappointed! Luckily for her and me, I LOVED this book. Wow, I was surprised by how much I fell in love with this world and these characters. The main MC Bryce was constantly dealing with survivor’s guilt, PTSD, mistrust and anxiety and I absolutely love when an author isn’t scared to torment their MC. Her growth and strength throughout the entire book was so satisfying to read. The hate to love romance in this book was PERFECTION! The twist at the end was so clever and actually SURPRISING! If all of Maas’s books are like this, I will be a happy reader. 

Punk 57 by Penelope Douglas

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

After last month when I read Birthday Girl by Douglas, I knew I wanted to read more of her books. In Punk 57, we follow Micah and Ryan, both 18 years old, who have never met but have been pen pals since they were kids. Micah is a singer in a metal band and Ryan is a cheerleader at a different school. A death happens in Micah’s family which leads him to pretend to be someone else and enroll in Ryan’s school, in order to achieve a few goals before leaving town. This is 100% a hate to love romance and the sexual tension is amazing. Another gratifying book by Douglas. 

White Fragility by Robin DiAngelo

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

With everything going on in the United States, this is a book that was recommended to me and that now I am recommending to all of you. I am not going to review this book. Just read it. Books like this are important to be able to understand even a little bit about what is happening in our world and what has been happening this entire time! 

Elantris by Brandon Sanderson

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

Another Sanderson book, another astounding read. This story is part of Sanderson’s cosmere world and I knew a lot of people who loved this book so I was excited to finally get to it. We follow three different main characters, a prince who is cast out, and princess from a foreign land, and a religious official trying to convert everyone in this city. This is one of the most political books by Sanderson that I have ever read and I loved that. There was a magic system but it was not the main focus. Again just like in Alloy of Law, the princess in this story was writing extraordinarily well, in my opinion, full of humor, strength, charisma, and intelligence. Yet again Sanderson wrote a phenomenal book and to know that this was his first book is just insane to me. He is so talented. 

Before They Are Hanged by Joe Abercrombie

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

Before They Are Hanged is the second book in the First Law trilogy following the same twisted and grim characters that we met in the first book. This world continues to surprise me with its brutality and scheming. What I love about this world is how the characters we follow are so dark and gray, yet you can’t help rooting for them to succeed, to survive. I am excited to see what the third book in this series brings. 

Gemina by Amie Kaufman, Jay Kristoff

Rating: 3 out of 5 stars

Second book in the Illuminae Files, we follow different characters in the same world but different spaceships. Hannah is the spoiled party girl daughter of the ship’s captain and Nik is a member of a drug crime family. While getting ready for a party, the ship is invaded by a strike team and it’s up to Nik and Hannah to survive their loved ones, their home, and possibly the universe. Overall it was okay. I think I enjoyed the first one more and it just didn’t fully grab my attention.  

The Golden Dynasty by Kristen Ashley

Rating: 3 out of 5 stars

The story starts with Circe waking up in a weird corral filled with women who are about to be “hunted” by warriors to be claimed as their wives. She hopes its all a bad dream but soon realizes this is all actually happening. Circe ends up grabbing the attention of the clan’s chief and becomes his wife. She has to quickly learn the culture, the language, and try to survive in this brutal world. The entire time all I could think of was Khal Drogo and Daenerys from Game of Thrones. Trigger warning for sexual abuse 

The Southern Book Club’s Guide to Slaying Vampires by Grady Hendrix

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

If Peace Talks by Jim Butcher hadn’t come out this month, this book would have easily been my favorite of the month! This was the first book I have ever read by Hendrix and it will not be the last. The book is set in the suburbs in the 1990s and we follow a group of wives that love reading thrillers and mysteries in their book club. When a stranger moves into town, kids start disappearing, and weird events keep happening, the book club tries to figure out what is happening in their small community. This story was creepy, intense, and so well written! The social and women issues that were addressed  

Peace Talks by Jim Butcher

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

Guys! Guys! It is FINALLY here! After 6 years, the wait is over! I was so happy when I got my signed copy in the mail. I took my sweet time over a weekend to read this book and man, was it worth it. I can’t say much about it because it would lead to spoilers for some of the other books in the series. But pretty much, we follow our favorite wizard, Harry Dresden, as he is stuck yet again between a rock and a hard place. Honestly, the end was emotional, stressful, and so entertaining. I don’t know how they will survive the attacks that are happening in Chicago right now. Can’t wait for Battle Grounds! 

Shadows of Self by Brandon Sanderson

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

On to book 2 in the Mistborn Era 2 series and man did the twist in this book slap me in the face honestly. I had a slight feeling about the twist but I didn’t think it was going to actually happen. I felt really bad for Wax in this book. Wax follows the advice and direction from the Gods in this world. Eventually Wax is a great character, Wayne steals the show for me a lot of the time with his humor and troubled past. 

Too Much and Never Enough by Mary L Trump

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

I liked this book for what it was, a simple overview of Mary Trump’s family through her eyes growing up and how she saw her Uncle Donald Trump’s rise to power. There was no “tea” that the world hadn’t heard of before but the book explained how Trump’s family played a big role in making him the person that he is today. I do recommend this book to readers interested in the mind of Trump and why he is the way he is but don’t go in expecting some great revelations. 

The Bands of Mourning by Brandon Sanderson

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

I was a little sad to read this book because I didn’t want to be caught up with the Mistborn world, I just love it so much! There were so many twists and turns in The Bands of Mourning that I didn’t see coming! I liked the development we have seen with Steris, who I found boring in the first book but she has become so charming with her seriousness and list making. I loved that Sanderson had the readers venture out of the capital to explore more of this world and introduced us to some new characters from a distant land. Major cliffhanger at the end so I can’t wait for the next book. 

Warbreaker by Brandon Sanderson

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

This book has become one of my favorite books by Sanderson which is always hard to say because I love all his books. I didn’t know what to expect going into it because I like to avoid any spoilers when I read books. The magic system in Warbreaker was so interesting and unique and the political story line was amazing! There were several twists throughout the story that I didn’t see coming and that just makes me love the book even more. 

Bully by Penelope Douglas

Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

Penelope Douglas has easily become my favorite romance author and Bully was another incredible book by her. We follow Tatum and her neighbor Jared. Growing up, they were best friends and very close but after a summer away visiting his dad, Jared changed. After that summer, Jared became Tatum’s bully, constantly spreading rumors and harassing her. Now as seniors about to graduate, Tatum is finally standing up to Jared and that causes their relationship to change. Very fun and fast read. 

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January Book Wrap Up

Earlier this month, I posted my January book review and I thought I wasn’t going to get through any other books the rest of the month because of school. But LUCKILY, my school work hasn’t been that bad yet! So I went a little crazy and read A LOT more books after those from my last post. 8 more books to be exact!

Labyrinth Lost by Zoraida Cordova 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • I LOVE this book and when I found out there was a sequel to it, I got real excited. This book creates a beautiful world of magic with hints of the Latino culture which I loved since I grew up in the Mexican culture. Best way to describe this book is think of the show Charmed but with Latinx witches (brujas)!

The Power of Self-Compassion by Laurie J Cameron 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Self-Help
  • Audible
  • I liked this audiobook but I didn’t think it was anything new or revolutionary. I enjoyed some of the exercises within this book to help with calming anxiety and that negative voice that can affect your brain.

You’re Never Weird on the Internet (Almost) by Felicia Day

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Autobiography
  • I knew even before starting this book that I would absolutely love it! If you are a fan of Felicia Day, the gaming world online, or just geek stuff, read this book.

The Book of Sam by Rob Shapiro 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • The world described was so vivid that I felt completely immersed and the descriptions in this book about Hell were different from others I have read so I appreciated that. As you read this book and meet new character, you will just never know if that person/demon is good or bad.

Hold Me Tight by Jason Schneiderman 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Poetry
  • Very different from other poetry books I have read before. This book addressed anxiety from a world filled with technology and violence.

Bruja Born by Zoraida Cordova 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • Sequel to Labyrinth Lost and it did not disappoint at all. Again, if you loved Charmed, love witches, and strong female characters, read this series. I can’t wait for the third book in the series to come out later this year.

Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • This was an easy and fun young adult book that makes you invested in the character’s lives and dreams. The romance in this book was simple and was built nice and slow from the beginning. I don’t like when authors introduce character, give them little interaction together and then they were somehow in love. This book’s romance made sense.

A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fiction/Fantasy
  • It takes a lot for me to cry at a book or movie but this book truly made it easy to cry because of the heart-wrenching storyline. The author tackled the ideas of death, grieving, loss, and healing after the death of a loved one.

I am so proud of myself this month. I got through 19 books total this January! Started off this year strong for sure. We shall see how February goes. I am currently working on three books, Towers of Midnight (Wheel of Time book 13) by Robert Jordan, Glass Sword (Red Queen book 2) by Victoria Aveyard, and The Sea of Monsters (Percy Jackson and the Olympians book 2) by Rick Riordan. I am excited to see what other worlds I discover this month! What are you guys reading? Do you guys have any recommendations? Leave me a comment. Until next time, bye everyone!

 

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The Bad Mexican Daughter, Part 2: “Family Don’t End With Blood”

Welcome back to The Bad Mexican Daughter. I hope those of you who read the first part of this series not only enjoyed it but also connected to it in someway. I know that for me, as I was writing part 1, I felt a major sense of relief. Those were thoughts I have had for years, thoughts that had haunted and taunted me. It felt good to be able to express myself freely for the first time. Not holding back at all. 

So I want to continue that feeling. Here is The Bad Mexican Daughter, Part 2: “Family Don’t End With Blood”

“Family Don’t End With Blood” has become a very important part of my life and how I see the world. For those of you who do not recognize that signing, don’t worry I will explain its origin and for those that do know this quote, let’s be friends! Anyways, this quote was said by a character in the TV show, Supernatural (one of my favorite shows of all time). He is yelling this quote to the two main characters, explaining that even though they are not blood related, they are family. 

This statement has always held a very special place in my heart. I have always been that individual that felt more comfortable, more understood with people outside of my family than with those that I share blood with. That is a very un-Mexican thing to think. My parents, especially my mom always argued with me because I didn’t like going to family parties. That feeling started at a young age, probably 8-9. I just knew that I didn’t fit in with my cousins, that I didn’t want to play or dance with my family. My mom would just say that I was misbehaving and she would force me to go to family events. 

Let me explain one thing very quickly. I came from a typical Mexican family, meaning LARGE family. Both of my parents had several siblings and cousins and those individual’s all had 2-6 kids so I have A LOT of cousins. And unfortunately for me, I have only ever truly connected with 3 of those cousins. My extended family loves parties, loud music, dancing, drinking, etc. That is not my scene at all so during these events I would find the farthest corner away from everyone with my close 2-3 cousins, if they were there, and just tried to ignore everything around me. Those events always made me anxious and uncomfortable, yet I still had to go. 

Lucky for me, once I got into high school, started honor classes and joining clubs, I had several excuses to miss those parties. Eventually the only time I would see my extended family was at Thanksgiving and Christmas. Even then, I would leave early to spend time with friends or my boyfriend at the time. 

The older I got, the more certain I was that my “family” wasn’t only those related to me by blood. When I say this, I want to make sure that everyone understands that I am not saying that my blood family isn’t my family anymore. But those who I have chosen to be my new family are just as important and precious to me as the others. Family should be those who you want in your life, to share important moments with, the people who understand you. For me, the majority of those individuals are not blood relatives and that is okay. 

Sometimes, I feel bad feeling this way. Mexican culture is very strongly connected to family. Family is the most important thing in the world, next to God. I was told this my entire life. So when I say that the family I have chosen isn’t those blood related to me, its almost like a slap in the face to my blood-related family. But I believe we all have the right to feel comfortable and safe with those we call family and that is why I can’t call all of my blood relatives my true family. 

When I was younger, I figured these thoughts and feelings would go away but they only intensified. Now as a 26 year old woman, I can understand that these thoughts, these feelings are perfectly okay and this acceptance all started with that quote from Supernatural, “Family Don’t End With Blood.” If you feel closer and safer with people who are not blood relatives, that is okay. If you want to spend time with your new family more than your blood relatives, that is okay. Life is too short to continually put yourself in situations where we feel uncomfortable and strange.

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Book Haul! – January 2020

As an employee of a bookstore and living close to another used bookstore, buying books is just going to happen. Some people might think I’m crazy for the number of books I purchased and just have, in general, in my house. But to me, books are an escape, they are my happy place that helps me with my anxiety. Some months, like this month, the book haul will be huge and other times, not so much.

A bit information about my reading habits:

  • Fantasy books are my absolute favorite (ex. Harry Potter series, Dresden files, Mistborn)
  • I read a little from every other genre except religion and business books not because I don’t like those types of books but because I just haven’t found anything in those genres that interests me yet
  • I try to read 2-3 books a week
  • I love Audible and use it every day

Okay let’s get to the book haul for January 2020!

Physical books:

  1. The Truth About Magic by Atticus – signed copy (Poetry)
  2. The Way of Shadows by Brent Weeks (Fantasy)
  3. The Last Command, Star Wars by Timothy Zahn (Fantasy)
  4. Feast of Souls by C.S. Friedman (Fantasy)
  5. Dragons of Autumn Twilight by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman (Fantasy)
  6. Words of Radiance by Brandon Sanderson (Fantasy)
  7. Dead Beat by Jim Butcher (Fantasy)
  8. White Night by Jim Butcher (Fantasy)
  9. Turn Coat by Jim Butcher (Fantasy)
  10. Percy Jackson series by Rick Riordan (Juv Fantasy)
  11. The Wishing Spell by Chris Colfer (Juv Fantasy)
  12. The Enchantress Returns by Chris Colfer (Juv Fantasy)
  13. Simon vs the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli (YA Fiction)
  14. Labyrinth Lost by Zoraida Cordova (YA Fantasy)
  15. Bruja Born by Zoraida Cordova (YA Fantasy)
  16. Thunderhead by Neal Shusterman (Science Fiction)
  17. Serpent and Dove by Shelby Mahurin (YA Fantasy)
  18. The Blade Itself by Joe Abercrombie (Fantasy)
  19. Last Argument of Kings by Joe Abercrombie (Fantasy)
  20. A Little Hatred by Joe Abercrombie (Fantasy)
  21. King of Scars by Leigh Bardugo – signed copy (YA Fantasy)
  22. A Memory of Light by Robert Jordan and Brandon Sanderson (Fantasy)
  23. Wise Man’s Fear by Patrick Rothfuss (Fantasy)
  24. Echo North by Joanna Ruth Meyer – signed copy (YA Fantasy)

Audible books:

  1. Children of Blood and Bone by Tomi Adeyemi (YA Fantasy)
  2. A Fire Sparkling by Julianne MacLean (Romance/Historical Fiction)
  3. The Power of Self-Compassion by Laurie J Cameron (Audible original/Personal Growth)
  4. Junkyard Cats by Faith Hunter (Audible original/Science Fiction)
  5. Payoff by Dan Ariely (Self-Help)
  6. Forensics by Val McDermid (True Crime)
  7. Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard (YA Fantasy)
  8. You’re Never Weird on the Internet (Almost) by Felicia Day (Biography)

If you guys have any recommendations of awesome books that I should check out, please leave me a comment! Until next time, bye!

P.S. A special thank you to my friend Lauren who stood in line to get Joanna Ruth Meyer to sign Echo North for me! You are the best!

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To anyone that might read this

Hi my name is Stacey and thank you for visiting my blog. I started this blog years ago when I was going through the worst depression I have ever experienced and needed a safe place to express my emotions, my thoughts. My depression back in 2015 was no joke, I couldn’t work, I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t function as a human being. I had to go on leave from work for six months and was going to therapy, at first five times a week, with a psychologist and a counselor. I had no real support in my life which made everything ten times tougher. I was in a loveless, harmful relationship with a guy that believed his problems were the only problems that mattered. My family lived in another state which sucked but honestly even if they had been in the same state, their presence would have probably added to my depression.

Let me explain. I love my mom and I know she loves me but I am a disappointment to her. I am first generation college student who was always good at school so my family expected me to go to a university, graduate in four years and get a good paying job right out of college. Let’s just say that did not happen. Instead I moved away from my family after my freshmen year, moved in with a boy, and dropped out of college. My family, especially my mom, likes to bring this up and how I should be done with school and my degree by now. Also my mom doesn’t believe in psychology and psychological disorders. She was raised in Mexico in a very Catholic environment and if you had a problem or any stress, you were to pray to God for help not go to a doctor or therapist. So when I had my mental breakdown, my mom could not understand why it was happening and she didn’t believe I needed therapy and medication. To add to all of this, I was getting texts from my sister, who was still living with my parents, that I needed to stop being selfish and move back home because I am upsetting our mom. Absolutely no support or kind words from her at all, just judgement. Lastly, the main reason my depression would have been worse with my family around…my dad. In another future post that I am going to write I will go into detail about my relationship with my dad. All I need to say now is that he was a compulsive gambler and alcoholic for my entire childhood and life (until recently) and he is a great deal of stress and anxiety in my life. I never told him about my depression or anxiety because he would have made a joke about it and believed that I was just being a “drama queen.” Currently, our relationship has improved slightly but if I spend too much time around him, or see him and my mom interact, my anxiety and stress spikes.

Okay, enough about my family drama. Back to reason I am writing all of this down. I want this page to be where I can write about anything and have a conversation with people about issues like depression, anxiety, family problems, unhealthy relationships. But also have a place to talk about fun things that I love like fantasy books (or just books in general XD), movies, harry potter, supernatural, dungeons and dragons, paranormal, conspiracies, etc. etc! I also want to continue to work on my poetry which has a special place in my heart. I think I covered everything I wanted to cover. I hope someone reads this and wants to come continue a conversation with me that I start. We shall see I guess! Thanks to anyone who is here reading this!

-Stacey

Posted in fandom, geek, nerd

Fandoms!

The last couple of posts we have posted have been kind of serious and deep but like I said before that all of the posts will be like that. I am very excited for this post because it’s going to be about FANDOMS! Just in case there is someone out there that doesn’t know what fandoms are, a fandom is a group of people that feel a connection because of their love and massive interest in a specific topic. Over the last couple of years, thanks to tumblr and other social media sites, fandoms have become very popular and people love to embrace their “obsessions.” I hope no one gets offend with me saying obsession because it’s completely okay to be obsessed and absolutely in love with a TV show, music artist, comic book hero, etc. I honestly can’t even list all of my fandoms or obsession because there are so many. My entire house is covered with posters and merchandise of my favorite fandoms. I love that in the last couple of years, it has become okay to display your love for these things and talk about our obsessions. During high school, I always felt like I couldn’t completely be myself and show the love I have for so many fandoms. Most of the friends that I hung out with during high school were way more into performing in band/marching band/drum corps, ultimate Frisbee, and other things that were definitely not my fandoms. I was 100% definitely the nerd and geek in my high school group of friends. My twin, Mallory, said something to me when we started hanging out that she never thought I was a nerd or geek because of the way I presented myself with my clothing and makeup. I started hanging out with a few people at Walmart where I worked at the time and a lot of them agreed that they had no idea I liked nerdy things because I just didn’t look like the “type” (whatever that means) and I never talked about my obsessions. When I started at Arizona State University and started hanging out with Mallory and other nerds from Walmart more and more besides just my friends from high school, I started to feel like I could share my love for my fandoms and it was accepted. I started to not be afraid of talking about my fandoms and wouldn’t hide the merchandise that I purchased of these fandoms.

The most important fandom to me would have to be Supernatural. From the first episode that aired in 2005, I was completely in love and infatuated with this TV show. I was 11, about to turn 12, when it started and have definitely grown up with Supernatural and have always been a loyal fan! One reason this show means so much to me is because Supernatural is the reason I find my soulmate, my twin Mallory! One random day at Walmart, Mallory and I had lunch together and one of us brought up Supernatural and from that moment, we were forever friends. Another reason why Supernatural means a lot to me is because I was really into the paranormal, fantasy shows and movies but before Supernatural, I never really had a chance to learn about different paranormal stuff or folk lore. But this show allowed me to increase my interest in all of those areas. I could go on and on about why Supernatural is the best show ever but I will only talk about one more reason why I love it. The best thing about this amazing show is the cast. Everyone who has ever been on this show, whether they are still around or have died, is absolutely fucking awesome!  Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, Misha Collins, Felicia Day, Mark Sheppard, I could go on and on about the amazing actors and actresses on Supernatural but I just love how incredible and hilarious all of them are. I love that when you watch the gag reels for the seasons, interviews, or they go to conventions, every single cast member is open and loves their fans.

-Stacey