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January Book Wrap Up

Earlier this month, I posted my January book review and I thought I wasn’t going to get through any other books the rest of the month because of school. But LUCKILY, my school work hasn’t been that bad yet! So I went a little crazy and read A LOT more books after those from my last post. 8 more books to be exact!

Labyrinth Lost by Zoraida Cordova 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • I LOVE this book and when I found out there was a sequel to it, I got real excited. This book creates a beautiful world of magic with hints of the Latino culture which I loved since I grew up in the Mexican culture. Best way to describe this book is think of the show Charmed but with Latinx witches (brujas)!

The Power of Self-Compassion by Laurie J Cameron 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Self-Help
  • Audible
  • I liked this audiobook but I didn’t think it was anything new or revolutionary. I enjoyed some of the exercises within this book to help with calming anxiety and that negative voice that can affect your brain.

You’re Never Weird on the Internet (Almost) by Felicia Day

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Autobiography
  • I knew even before starting this book that I would absolutely love it! If you are a fan of Felicia Day, the gaming world online, or just geek stuff, read this book.

The Book of Sam by Rob Shapiro 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • The world described was so vivid that I felt completely immersed and the descriptions in this book about Hell were different from others I have read so I appreciated that. As you read this book and meet new character, you will just never know if that person/demon is good or bad.

Hold Me Tight by Jason Schneiderman 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Poetry
  • Very different from other poetry books I have read before. This book addressed anxiety from a world filled with technology and violence.

Bruja Born by Zoraida Cordova 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • Sequel to Labyrinth Lost and it did not disappoint at all. Again, if you loved Charmed, love witches, and strong female characters, read this series. I can’t wait for the third book in the series to come out later this year.

Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fantasy
  • This was an easy and fun young adult book that makes you invested in the character’s lives and dreams. The romance in this book was simple and was built nice and slow from the beginning. I don’t like when authors introduce character, give them little interaction together and then they were somehow in love. This book’s romance made sense.

A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness 

  • Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
  • Genre: Young Adult Fiction/Fantasy
  • It takes a lot for me to cry at a book or movie but this book truly made it easy to cry because of the heart-wrenching storyline. The author tackled the ideas of death, grieving, loss, and healing after the death of a loved one.

I am so proud of myself this month. I got through 19 books total this January! Started off this year strong for sure. We shall see how February goes. I am currently working on three books, Towers of Midnight (Wheel of Time book 13) by Robert Jordan, Glass Sword (Red Queen book 2) by Victoria Aveyard, and The Sea of Monsters (Percy Jackson and the Olympians book 2) by Rick Riordan. I am excited to see what other worlds I discover this month! What are you guys reading? Do you guys have any recommendations? Leave me a comment. Until next time, bye everyone!

 

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To anyone that might read this

Hi my name is Stacey and thank you for visiting my blog. I started this blog years ago when I was going through the worst depression I have ever experienced and needed a safe place to express my emotions, my thoughts. My depression back in 2015 was no joke, I couldn’t work, I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t function as a human being. I had to go on leave from work for six months and was going to therapy, at first five times a week, with a psychologist and a counselor. I had no real support in my life which made everything ten times tougher. I was in a loveless, harmful relationship with a guy that believed his problems were the only problems that mattered. My family lived in another state which sucked but honestly even if they had been in the same state, their presence would have probably added to my depression.

Let me explain. I love my mom and I know she loves me but I am a disappointment to her. I am first generation college student who was always good at school so my family expected me to go to a university, graduate in four years and get a good paying job right out of college. Let’s just say that did not happen. Instead I moved away from my family after my freshmen year, moved in with a boy, and dropped out of college. My family, especially my mom, likes to bring this up and how I should be done with school and my degree by now. Also my mom doesn’t believe in psychology and psychological disorders. She was raised in Mexico in a very Catholic environment and if you had a problem or any stress, you were to pray to God for help not go to a doctor or therapist. So when I had my mental breakdown, my mom could not understand why it was happening and she didn’t believe I needed therapy and medication. To add to all of this, I was getting texts from my sister, who was still living with my parents, that I needed to stop being selfish and move back home because I am upsetting our mom. Absolutely no support or kind words from her at all, just judgement. Lastly, the main reason my depression would have been worse with my family around…my dad. In another future post that I am going to write I will go into detail about my relationship with my dad. All I need to say now is that he was a compulsive gambler and alcoholic for my entire childhood and life (until recently) and he is a great deal of stress and anxiety in my life. I never told him about my depression or anxiety because he would have made a joke about it and believed that I was just being a “drama queen.” Currently, our relationship has improved slightly but if I spend too much time around him, or see him and my mom interact, my anxiety and stress spikes.

Okay, enough about my family drama. Back to reason I am writing all of this down. I want this page to be where I can write about anything and have a conversation with people about issues like depression, anxiety, family problems, unhealthy relationships. But also have a place to talk about fun things that I love like fantasy books (or just books in general XD), movies, harry potter, supernatural, dungeons and dragons, paranormal, conspiracies, etc. etc! I also want to continue to work on my poetry which has a special place in my heart. I think I covered everything I wanted to cover. I hope someone reads this and wants to come continue a conversation with me that I start. We shall see I guess! Thanks to anyone who is here reading this!

-Stacey

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Fandoms!

The last couple of posts we have posted have been kind of serious and deep but like I said before that all of the posts will be like that. I am very excited for this post because it’s going to be about FANDOMS! Just in case there is someone out there that doesn’t know what fandoms are, a fandom is a group of people that feel a connection because of their love and massive interest in a specific topic. Over the last couple of years, thanks to tumblr and other social media sites, fandoms have become very popular and people love to embrace their “obsessions.” I hope no one gets offend with me saying obsession because it’s completely okay to be obsessed and absolutely in love with a TV show, music artist, comic book hero, etc. I honestly can’t even list all of my fandoms or obsession because there are so many. My entire house is covered with posters and merchandise of my favorite fandoms. I love that in the last couple of years, it has become okay to display your love for these things and talk about our obsessions. During high school, I always felt like I couldn’t completely be myself and show the love I have for so many fandoms. Most of the friends that I hung out with during high school were way more into performing in band/marching band/drum corps, ultimate Frisbee, and other things that were definitely not my fandoms. I was 100% definitely the nerd and geek in my high school group of friends. My twin, Mallory, said something to me when we started hanging out that she never thought I was a nerd or geek because of the way I presented myself with my clothing and makeup. I started hanging out with a few people at Walmart where I worked at the time and a lot of them agreed that they had no idea I liked nerdy things because I just didn’t look like the “type” (whatever that means) and I never talked about my obsessions. When I started at Arizona State University and started hanging out with Mallory and other nerds from Walmart more and more besides just my friends from high school, I started to feel like I could share my love for my fandoms and it was accepted. I started to not be afraid of talking about my fandoms and wouldn’t hide the merchandise that I purchased of these fandoms.

The most important fandom to me would have to be Supernatural. From the first episode that aired in 2005, I was completely in love and infatuated with this TV show. I was 11, about to turn 12, when it started and have definitely grown up with Supernatural and have always been a loyal fan! One reason this show means so much to me is because Supernatural is the reason I find my soulmate, my twin Mallory! One random day at Walmart, Mallory and I had lunch together and one of us brought up Supernatural and from that moment, we were forever friends. Another reason why Supernatural means a lot to me is because I was really into the paranormal, fantasy shows and movies but before Supernatural, I never really had a chance to learn about different paranormal stuff or folk lore. But this show allowed me to increase my interest in all of those areas. I could go on and on about why Supernatural is the best show ever but I will only talk about one more reason why I love it. The best thing about this amazing show is the cast. Everyone who has ever been on this show, whether they are still around or have died, is absolutely fucking awesome!  Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, Misha Collins, Felicia Day, Mark Sheppard, I could go on and on about the amazing actors and actresses on Supernatural but I just love how incredible and hilarious all of them are. I love that when you watch the gag reels for the seasons, interviews, or they go to conventions, every single cast member is open and loves their fans.

-Stacey